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Monday, October 27, 2003
I'd call it gusty,were it not something so obviously more spiritual than that......
It blows around my jacket threatning to tear it off my back and send me back into the house where all is safe
safe for the constant fear of having the house fall to peices under weight of the wind.aw heck it's just wind,nothing more than and an uber-strong wind.....
So I went outside today,braved the weather came back somewhat victorius.Dad wanted me to empty the ashes from the coal stoker.So I went out sporting a touque and also a heavy jacket that keeps it's large barrel-shape no matter what the person underneath is shaped like,this creates a dome aorund the body that is largely open at the waist for the wind to blow up your shirt and along your neck sending shivers to your skull,which in turn renders the tougue useless.
I also had a grape lollipop in my mouth.(to quote one of the only good characters from one of the only good scenes in the matrix:reloaded "I love candy")
You'know as miserable as the weather is out here,going out into it make me feel like I'm in a well-made movie with a backdrop of one of the most depressing and bleak settings.not unlike the wondrous drama "the shipping news" in which we see nova scotia in all it's windy,cloudy,cold glory.
I hate to sound like a bore,( or to be one,for that matter.to quote a bore is to be a bore,no?
" A U shaped tube filled with mercury is placed on a wooden frame made of a basis and two vertical planks. The left side of the tube is shorter and ends with a goblet from which a horizontal little tube with tap branches off. On the plank two scales are drawn. Besides, an index is placed on a plank . For the experiment we fill the goblet with a liquid different from mercury."-quote from one of my faveorite webpages used to illustrate that I am a bore because I repeated such a snore.here is the site http://spazioinwind.libero.it/gabinetto_di_fisica/meccanicas/mechanicsca.htm
now, if only you knew wether or not I was serious,as to loving the site.)But I want to make mention of another series of dreams I've been having all involving my descision to move to calgary.well,last nights installment I was in the apartment that angie an dI were to share and I realised I hadn't brought one peice of luggage,which of course was blown out of proportion to the point that I forgot about getitng it transported to me,so decided I must go back home....
anyways just wondering if these are signs from God that I should indeed go to calgary.I've been having these dreams of making the desicion "yes" since I heard I need to decide soon.
oh hum,nothing else of interest to import.
Caleb 4:54 PM
Wednesday, October 22, 2003
Cue todays moody blog music (c:/windows/desktop/everythingIwant/Donnie darkosoundtrack/thechurch-underthemilkyway.mp3)better throw in echo and the bunnymen for good measure.
ah......perfect.Puts me in a good-crybaby state.
So,lately I've been dreaming,various senarios of of my state of mind but I've been having one reoccuring one.I've been having dreams of abadned houses for the past while,These are some of my faveorite dreams,I get this really dark emotion inside (I think in dreams we get to feel some of the purest emotions and even some emotions we've never excperianced before)but I'm not scared and I feel very adventurous and besides,my subconsious creates some pretty beautiful (yet,creepy)images of tattered wallpaper ,leaky pipes and busted attic cielings where the wind howls in.So I've been visiting houses in oak lake and deep forests I walked through an abandoned church basement in an escpescially memorable dreamscape.Swingy lightbulbs that are turned on by pulling a chain,doors that are so small you have to squeeze in and under into an unlit room full of dust and moist wood.yeah,I like these dreams,but what do they mean?Mom said she used to dream of abandoned houses and such and said the houses may be ourselves
which makes sense,and I saw an explanation on the web saying different rooms are different facets of our personalities.If this is so than I can easily say I haven't been in one room in my house that would welcome anybody but myself,I can't think of anybody be delighted by my sense of decorum.Mabye I can convince myself to clean up a bit tonight,it's much more fun,for me to wander through it messy-like.Kind of creeping me out thinking of myself as a house,mabye there is something wrong with me and I'm always with a bunch of people before entering, and the house looks nice from outside,but I always enter alone..........that's some food for my thought.you can't have any,It's substanceless for any body besides me and my refined toungue..............
merci beaucoup,brain!
So I have to tell angie pronot wether or not I'm gonna move in with her,what a terror! I want to,but I'm scared but i also have no idea wether or not it's what God wants me to do so I'm awaiting an answer from Him.I'd love to get an answer than just taking His silence as either a "yes" or "no".Please pray I hear from him,and clearly too,I think I may be thick.................
Caleb 7:40 PM
Cue todays moody blog music (c:/windows/desktop/everythingIwant/Donnie darkosoundtrack/thechurch-underthemilkyway.mp3)better throw in echo and the bunnymen for good measure.
ah......perfect.Puts me in a good-crybaby state.
So,lately I've been dreaming,various senarios of of my state of mind but I've been having one reoccuring one.I've been having dreams of abadned houses for the past while,These are some of my faveorite dreams,I get this really dark emotion inside but I'm not scared and I feel very adventurous and besides,my subconsious creates some pretty beautiful (yet,creepy)images of tattered wallpaper ,leaky pipes and busted attic cielings where the wind howls in.So I've been visiting houses in oak lake and deep forests I walked through an abandoned church basement in an escpescially memorable dreamscape.Swingy lightbulbs that are turned on by pulling a chain,doors that are so small you have to squeeze in and under into an unlit room full of dust and moist wood.yeah,I like these dreams,but what do they mean?Mom said she used to dream of abandoned houses and such and said the houses may be ourselves
which makes sense,and I saw an explanation on the web saying different rooms are different facets of our personalities.If this is so than I can easily say I haven't been in one room in my house that would welcome anybody but myself,I can't think of anybody be delighted by my sense of decorum.Mabye I can convince myself to clean up a bit tonight,it's much more fun,for me to wander through it messy-like.Kind of creeping me out thinking of myself as a house,mabye there is something wrong with me and I'm always with a bunch of people before entering, and the house looks nice from outside,but I always enter alone..........that's some food for my thought.you can't have any,It's substanceless for any body besides me and my refined toungue..............
merci beaucoup,brain!
So I have to tell angie pronot wether or not I'm gonna move in with her,what a terror! I want to,but I'm scared but i also have no idea wether or not it's what God wants me to do so I'm awaiting an answer from Him.I'd love to get an answer than just taking His silence as either a "yes" or "no".Please pray I hear from him,and clearly too,I think I may be thick.................
Caleb 7:15 PM
Saturday, October 18, 2003
I've just downloaded a 1 minute nintendo commercial.It's an extremly ambitious little spot,involving some of the cutest Japanese children perfoming amazing feats of acrobatic ingenuity a la "crouching tiger hidden dragon" without all the eastern religious hoo-ha.Very cute.I'd say where I downloaded it but apperantly the commercial will be flooding televisions and movie screens (it's apperently going to appear in the final Matrix installment,seems fitting seeing as how it's about a bunch of kids flying around a city in the same style as Neo frequently does.) and will most likely be something you'll see a few times in the future.stupid update,I know but I'm a fan of advertising arts and also a fan of Nintendo so it only makes sense that I'd mention this....
Caleb 1:59 PM
I've just downloaded a 1 minute nintendo commercial.It's an extremly ambitious little spot,involving some of the cutest Japanese children perfoming amazing feats of acrobatic ingenuity a la "crouching tiger hidden dragon" without all the eastern religious hoo-ha.Very cute.I'd say where I downloaded it but apperantly the commercial will be flooding televisions and movie screens (it's apperently going to appear before the final Matrix installment,seems fitting seeing as how it's about a bunch of kids flying around a city in the same style as Neo frequently does.) and will most likely be something you'll see a few times in the future.stupid update,I know but I'm a fan of advertising arts and also a fan of Nintendo so it only makes sense that I'd mention this....
Caleb 1:59 PM
Thursday, October 16, 2003
you know what?that url below doesn't take you to my foo site.
you must put in http://cliff_greene.fotopages.com
if you add the www it doesn't work.go figure.
Caleb 8:30 AM
Wednesday, October 15, 2003
I have a foto site now,for all who want to see my fotos?(actually,no photos,yet,just artish)
www.cliff_greene.fotopages.com
Caleb 6:29 PM
wow,since I have zero better to do I think I'll post my faveorite movies up and possibly I'll even tell you what kind of music I like listening to.
not only is it fun for me to give my mattering opinions (opinions that matter) but you'll learn more about yours truly.
okay, movies first while I can quite simply say "donnie darko" is at #1 on my list of faveorite movies and "spirited away" is at #2 after that it's a little more difficult most of miyazakis cartoons are tied in the #3 slot ("My neighbor Totoro","LaputaCastle in the sky","whisper of the heart","grave of the fireflies" etc. I can most heartily reccomend most any of those films)
#5 goes to "edward scissorhands" or "brokedown palace".
Have you ever noticed how I missed posting #4?interesting thought.....I like "Babettes Feast" quite alot but not #4 much.....
Music,now this is harder for me,I'm not nearly as critical with music so I ldon't feel like I have to wade through a bunch of crap to get to the good stuff,some music IS crap but there is heaps of stuff I like so rather than bore you with the albums I like best I'll bore you with the artists I like best,It's a lose/fail situation!
#1 artist is Aphex twin (standout albums are "selected ambient works II" and "26 mixes for cash"
#2 artist is Boards of Canada (I own "music has the right to children" and I have never,ever heard any albums besides the above mentioned,but they're other albums kick butt!I love them all)
#3 artist is Robert Miles (his standout albums are all really good)
#4 artist is Donnie Darko (he makes pretty dang good 80's music)
#5 there are many others bjorkmobycirrustrickymorrisseyenyaetcetcetc just to muddle a few....
I am bored,Goodbye.
Caleb 1:24 PM
wow,since I have zero better to do I think I'll post my faveorite movies up and possibly I'll even tell you what kind of music I like listening to.
not only is it fun for me to give my mattering opinions (opinions that matter
) but you'll learn more about yours truly.
okay, movies first while I can quite simply say "donnie darko" is at #1 on my list of faveorite movies and "spirited away" is at #2 after that it's a little more difficult most of miyazakis cartoons are tied in the #3 slot ("My neighbor Totoro","LaputaCastle in the sky","whisper of the heart","grave of the fireflies" etc. I can most heartily reccomend most any of those films)
#5 goes to "edward scissorhands" or "brokedown palace".
Have you ever noticed how I missed posting #4?interesting thought.....I like "Babettes Feast" quite alot but not #4 much.....
Music,now this is harder for me,I'm not nearly as critical with music so I ldon't feel like I have to wade through a bunch of crap to get to the good stuff,some music IS crap but there is heaps of stuff I like so rather than bore you with the albums I like best I'll bore you with the artists I like best,It's a lose/fail situation!
#1 artist is Aphex twin (standout albums are "selected ambient works II" and "26 mixes for cash"
#2 artist is Boards of Canada (I own "music has the right to children" and I have never,ever heard any albums besides the above mentioned,but they're other albums kick butt!I love them all)
#3 artist is Robert Miles (his standout albums are all really good)
#4 artist is Donnie Darko (he makes pretty dang good 80's music)
#5 there are many others bjorkmobycirrustrickymorrisseyenyaetcetcetc just to muddle a few....
I am bored,Goodbye.
Caleb 1:24 PM
wow,since I have zero better to do I think I'll post my faveorite movies up and possible I'll even tell you what kind of music I like listening to.
not only is it fun for me to give my mattering opinions (opinions that matter
) but you'll learn more about yours truly.
okay, movies first while I can quite simply say "donnie darko" is at #1 on my list of faveorite movies and "spirited away" is at #2 after that it's a little more difficult most of miyazakis cartoons are tied in the #3 slot ("My neighbor Totoro","LaputaCastle in the sky","whisper of the heart","grave of the fireflies" etc. I can most heartily reccomend most any of those films)
#5 goes to "edward scissorhands" or "brokedown palace".
Have you ever noticed how I missed posting #4?interesting thought.....I like "Babettes Feast" quite alot but not #4 much.....
Music,now this is harder for me,I'm not nearly as critical with music so I ldon't feel like I have to wade through a bunch of crap to get to the good stuff,some music IS crap but there is heaps of stuff I like so rather than bore you with the albums I like best I'll bore you with the artists I like best,It's a lose/fail situation!
#1 artist is Aphex twin (standout albums are "selected ambient works II" and "26 mixes for cash"
#2 artist is Boards of Canada (I own "music has the right to children" and I have never,ever heard any albums besides the above mentioned,but they're other albums kick butt!I love them all)
#3 artist is Robert Miles (his standout albums are all really good)
#4 artist is Donnie Darko (he makes pretty dang good 80's music)
#5 there are many others bjorkmobycirrustrickymorrisseyenyaetcetcetc just to muddle a few....
I am bored,Goodbye.
Caleb 1:24 PM
I'm thinking that it is almost the time for me to make my blog public to the general public (namely family and friends).I'm still a little nervous,because I find it so hard to know excactly what's too private for me to post,I already dealt with that problem with a previous post.I'm a little ashamed of my state of mind,I'm extremly forgetful for one thing,that is apperantly a side-effect of some antibiotics I take for my pimples (or rather,for making the pimples go away,duh) let me elaborate.
Last night I was called to deliver ,to my brother,a cord that is needed to hook a video camera up to a television,it's very useful for recording home video and very necessary.So he says "you won't forget?" and I say (in a stupid idiot voice) "Uh,I'm just going to take a drive for no good reason!" and a like "duh!" so I get in the car remember to buckle up turn on the lights and I drive all the way to Oak lake (15 minute drive) and am just reaching the house when it dawns on my that I just took "a drive for no good reason" and a like "duh!" so I don't stop to tell my brother becaus he'd be pissed because it's urgent.I drive almost all the way home but stop at my uncle dave and auntie jans instead of going all the way home,I borrow their cord to save face.and turn around and go all the way back....
There you have an example of my current state of mind relating to memory retention.As for my other phsycological oddities They'll be evident in the art I plan to post as soon as I'm finished this blogpost.
I love to appear smart.I keep a book of famous scientists beside my bed (which I do read) and draw numbers on my hand,I think drawing numbers on ones hand not only displays to the world that you're an artist but that you are in fact a genius at the same time!Try it!
Caleb 10:13 AM
Saturday, October 11, 2003
"something so simple,something so trivial,makes me a happy man."-Depeche Mode
So anyways,this morning I drove to Brandon for the first time with my license without anyone else in the car with me.I experienced highway hypnosis and I would like to buy some gum or spitz now.let me tell you fear (of driving in Brandon for the first time) mixed with sleepiness only increases the fright.So I looked around the dash for something for me to suck on an my eyes fell on a pack of waterproof matches so I opened them and sucked on them for awhile,That helped and the smoothness of the waterproof wax covering isn't totally unpleasant.
On the way home I passed a teenage girl who was jogging on the shoulder.Then I had a realized that I like some aspects of humanity.She didn't look terribly overweight maybe a little but that made me happy to see her jogging to keep herself healthy.Then as I went through the local indian reserve I saw a native guy walking on the shoulder and wondered to myself how far away her lived from where he was,and wether or not he'd be faced the other direction on the way back.So on the way back when I saw that he was still going the same way I started crying,because in the rear-view mirror he looked so sad,or depressed and it was just one of those moments,where your heart goes out to a stranger.
I really did write on my face as I posted earlier and it would make sense to you if I hadn't accidently deleted the post that explained some of the feelings I've had recently.but they're far too personal feelings and I realize that now,besides it isn't important why I did it,but just that I did do it.
Caleb 1:26 PM
Wednesday, October 08, 2003
It's a full-moon (almost) I have a big thing for the full moon.It the one thing I look forward to all the time.when I see the moon waxing I get all excited that it'll soon be full,and when it's full I'll go outside and stare at it for long periods of time,I wonder if mabye it's the moon that gives me these strange emotions.like a gravitational pull or something,call it "moonswings".
so after this week I won't have a job as an accountant for the store,mabye I'll move to calgary with my sister.opr mabye I'll run away as I've had the urge to do for so long.the other day on the way to oak lake I swear i was this close (*puts forefinger and thumb really close*) to taking a southern road and traveling away from my work.It's a little scary feeling so vulnerable to sudden urges like that.I ave to get myself under control.don't I? mabye not.
My eyes are dripping with expectations of drifting fluffy pillows and soft bedsheeets and when I get like this my mind is overfilling with all sorts of emotional hyper-babble.I write strange and beautiful letters to friends at these times that,in the morning, turn into bizarre "what was I thinking?" nonsense.
gotta run,I hope I dream tonight and remember them,i'm gonna start my dream journal again I'm so bored of the real world I might as well enjoy the false world that I spend half my time in and try and be aware that life isn't always boring when youre asleep.....
Caleb 10:12 PM
Tuesday, October 07, 2003
This evening I stared in a mirror and made faces.
I picked up a dark pencil and with every new face I made
I'd stick the lead into the crevices around me forehead, cheeks and lips.
and slide it along back and forth until it made a dark line there.
I did this with my angry face,my sad face,my scared,my goofy and my happy face until I had dark lines surrounding my eyes,lips and nose.
I stared in the mirror and saw the old man I was to become he looked so much wiser from all the years he'd been through.I said hello to him and told him I couldn't wait to find out what transpires to make me look that way.I went to the sink closed my eyes and smeared soap all over my face and rinsed.I looked back at the youthful,eager face of myself as the wrinkles went down the drain....
Caleb 9:01 PM
Wednesday, October 01, 2003
An introduction?I'm totally new to expressing my feeling to random people but imagine I'll go as unoticed as my real life journal,not even tempting enough for my younger sibling to sneak a peek at.
I like to think I'm couragous and Cliff Greene basically exists and shows up whenever I need to stop shaking in my boots and buck up,he talks to strangers when I don't have the nerve and he works with heavy machinery when I'm afraid I'm gonna cut off my thumb.
I think that should suffice as a proper introduction,I'll update with my thoughtful intullect and mixed grammer mabye once a week,or if I'm having a particularly bad stint,once every three hours.ciao.
Caleb 6:39 PM
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